At the end of last month I found myself under the spell of the Bard... and now as October comes to a close I found myself in love with another Brit... John Lennon. I always liked John Lennon and found the songs he wrote resonated with me. I love most Beatles songs. I love "The Ballad of John and Yoko" and "So this is Christmas" and "Imagine." Mpre than ever his vision of peace is important. As an eighties baby John Lennon had already become a legend and been killed tragically by the time I was born. I thought of him as an icon. Until this weekend. This weekend I realized the obvious: John Lennon was just a boy. A funny, sad, fucked up boy - at times going nowhere... a boy from a broken home, lower middle class just like the boys I went to school with, just like me... and smart enough to treasure love more than hate.
Just a boy singing straw into gold....
This weekend I saw a film called NOWHERE BOY.
I'm excited about seeing more from this director Sam Taylor-Wood and more of these actors Thomas Sangster and Aaron Johnson. I also want to read the memoir by his half sister Julia Baird that this film is based on. This movie was fucking spectacular.
Starcake: sassier than your average astrologer...
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
October Monthly Horoscopes Boos
photos by the great clarence laughlin
CAPRICORN
Well well look at you coming into your own! You know fall is the time to fly or fall in love. With yourself or with another person get into a groove that comes naturally. Stop striving and just be. Don't worry if you things aren't how you planned. Consider dancing alone in a room to some old school house music.
AQUARIUS
I'd worry about you my darling if I didn't know that no matter how far you fling yourself you always boomerang back to the proper person or place. Just don't take too long because in this ever shifting world you never know what can happen.
PISCES
Like the clones in the movie NEVER LET ME GO take each day like you might "complete" at any time. Time is a wastin. Don't take anyone or anything for granted. Accept who you are and others will.
ARIES
Your inner demons find some peace this month and it is about time. Give yourself a break. Love your body. Take care of yourself, masturbate and take time to celebrate yourself. Remember that there is enough awesome in the world for you to be awesome and others to be awesome as well.
TAURUS
Shadows and fog and carnival music - you love the mystery of this month. Open your eyes and not your legs when you meet a charismatic stranger. Listen to some old school gospel music and sing to stray cats.
GEMINI
Take the next step toward that goal. You are closer than you think. Have the balls to risk it all if it is really that important.
CANCER
Give back to that person who always lends you a hand. Even something small will thrill them coming from you. Silver eyeshadow suits you at the end of the month.
LEO
Freedom from constraints grows near. Don't fear freedom even though it might feel strange at first.
VIRGO
Sometimes you hate yourself and then you do something cruel to make yourself feel better but it only makes it worse. You think you are punishing them but you are punishing yourself. Go soft, be gentle - you deserve a soft place to fall.
LIBRA
Don't forget who you are - a good person but no better than any other. I kid you not. None of us is better than anyother. That being said you have a special beauty of your own that you can share. You were born for a reason - for a good reason. We are all glad you were born - take heart. Celebrate this month and shine.
SCORPIO
Are you afraid of getting hurt again? Do you find yourself reliving an exchange with a beautiful someone you just met? Do you find yourself wanting to have sex with this person again and again. You could be perfect for eachother. Don't worry what others think.
SAGITTARIUS
Never lose that instinct of yours to give money to street musicians. Is it time for you to try to love again?
Thursday, September 30, 2010
"Doubt thou the stars are fire"
Doubt Thou the Stars Are Fire
Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love.
Hamlet
Act II, Scene II
Ethan Hawke was the best Hamlet ever until last night.. I did the "to a nunnery" scene with a stranger in a back office and then we sat quietly and then we did the scene again in a dim room.. intense.. I'm reluctant to actually put a word on the feelings that scene with him provoked. i'd done the scene with others and only this one Hamlet made me true true Ophelia... hurt and attracted and trying to put the pieces of him back together and his hands on me I go over it again and again in the fog of a small space and in the clear light of day and imagine what it would be like to kiss the lips of my Hamlet for during that scene our hearts beat palpably as one and our clarity resounded... What haunts came to light in his eyes I saw with such pristine clarity and surprise he saw the the same haunts in mine.. startling... and maybe what touched me the most was not his hands though his hands did touch me perfectly as night touches the grass, what touched me most was what we saw and our reactions.. he saw all too clearly into my eyes and what he saw surprised him but didn't scare him and he drew me closer than any has dared and I did the same for him... him who? Was it him or was it Hamlet? Was it me or was it Ophelia? Was it real or was it the real God given spell power of Shakespeare? Both? I don't need to ask if he felt it too because I know right well he did... round and round... from 1980 to now from the bottom of the map to the top... "never doubt that I love"
ps
October horoscopes coming out sometime on Saturday or Sunday... how I love October my ghosts!
Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love.
Hamlet
Act II, Scene II
Ethan Hawke was the best Hamlet ever until last night.. I did the "to a nunnery" scene with a stranger in a back office and then we sat quietly and then we did the scene again in a dim room.. intense.. I'm reluctant to actually put a word on the feelings that scene with him provoked. i'd done the scene with others and only this one Hamlet made me true true Ophelia... hurt and attracted and trying to put the pieces of him back together and his hands on me I go over it again and again in the fog of a small space and in the clear light of day and imagine what it would be like to kiss the lips of my Hamlet for during that scene our hearts beat palpably as one and our clarity resounded... What haunts came to light in his eyes I saw with such pristine clarity and surprise he saw the the same haunts in mine.. startling... and maybe what touched me the most was not his hands though his hands did touch me perfectly as night touches the grass, what touched me most was what we saw and our reactions.. he saw all too clearly into my eyes and what he saw surprised him but didn't scare him and he drew me closer than any has dared and I did the same for him... him who? Was it him or was it Hamlet? Was it me or was it Ophelia? Was it real or was it the real God given spell power of Shakespeare? Both? I don't need to ask if he felt it too because I know right well he did... round and round... from 1980 to now from the bottom of the map to the top... "never doubt that I love"
ps
October horoscopes coming out sometime on Saturday or Sunday... how I love October my ghosts!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
September Monthly Horoscopes
Dear Readers- You may have noticed that I have discontinued the weekly fortunes and the weekend tarot. My schedule has just not allowed for me to write those lately. The weekly fortunes will start again next week. Also I have been unable to read and comment on the blogs I love reading. Hopefully by next week I will be able to read more as well.
xo
starcake
photo by Irving Penn
CAPRICORN
Do you remember shooting them in the heart? Does it come back to you now as in a dream? It wasn't a dream, you did it and worst of all you justified it with petty concerns. And worst of all you did it because they were different and that scared you. HOWEVER they have risen and forgiven you. Forgive yourself now. You deserve nothing but happiness these days.
AQUARIUS
What do you think you are doing? How does that compare with what you are actually doing? You know there is only one person you think of when you climax. They think of you too. So why are you not together? The reasons for that separation might be legit or they might be trivial. If they are trivial toss them aside, swallow your pride and love.
PISCES
Odd how some people love you for the exact reasons others shun you. Some who shun you probably love you too but they just know they can't handle someone like you. It is a compliment really.
ARIES
Undo that knot you have tied yourself into. Spread out. Breathe. Don't waste your power. Don't waste your life.
TAURUS
Succumb to the seduction of the cool darkness. Not the monster under your bed or the torments in your head type of darkness but the soft cool darkness of rest and renewal and letting go. Once you succumb to that you will ache less. You will find yourself at the shore like a whole sand dollar without even a nick. Shored up perfection.
GEMINI
Sometimes it seems you have been through so much with certain friends that you could write a survival guide of sorts. What it comes down to is this: love them but don't let them objectify you. Turn the corner.
CANCER
Don't let yourself suffer from an atrophy of the mind. Stretch those muscles. Challenge yourself. Watch THE HOURS, FUR and FAR and AWAY. Channel Nicole Kidman this month. She is scrappy. She is dynamic. She chooses roles that challenge her and the viewer. Don't be afraid to change. Don't be afraid to surprise and even vex those who might think they have you pegged.
LEO
Now is all you have. If you keep on the past like the past you will disintegrate.
VIRGO
Do you remember the part in Bambi where his mother dies? That is such a sad part. His life is so uncertain He will have to fend for himself. By the end of the movie Bambi has his own family, his own life. Even though he suffered that unimaginable tragedy of losing his mother when he needed her most, in time he found happiness. Like Bambi, you now need to fend for yourself and find your own family, your own life. By the time all is said and done your own tragedy will be behind you. You will find happiness as long as you don't stop trying and as long as you continue to remain open to the magic of life. Don't be afraid to smile.
LIBRA
Would you believe that one friend who no longer speaks to you misses you sometimes? That even though they have moved on they want you to be happy and they even remember the good times fondly? Allow yourself to see the best in people. Allow yourself to loosen your fist. You have done a lot of good recently. Doing good doesn't give you a license to do bad. But you know that. Have faith in the universe. The universe has faith in you.
SCORPIO
Sometimes you feel you are a sad clown. Isn't that better and braver than just being sad?
SAGITTARIUS
Allow yourself those extra minutes in bed. Allow yourself to wander through the images in your head. Make a soundtrack for these last days of summer.
xo
starcake
photo by Irving Penn
CAPRICORN
Do you remember shooting them in the heart? Does it come back to you now as in a dream? It wasn't a dream, you did it and worst of all you justified it with petty concerns. And worst of all you did it because they were different and that scared you. HOWEVER they have risen and forgiven you. Forgive yourself now. You deserve nothing but happiness these days.
AQUARIUS
What do you think you are doing? How does that compare with what you are actually doing? You know there is only one person you think of when you climax. They think of you too. So why are you not together? The reasons for that separation might be legit or they might be trivial. If they are trivial toss them aside, swallow your pride and love.
PISCES
Odd how some people love you for the exact reasons others shun you. Some who shun you probably love you too but they just know they can't handle someone like you. It is a compliment really.
ARIES
Undo that knot you have tied yourself into. Spread out. Breathe. Don't waste your power. Don't waste your life.
TAURUS
Succumb to the seduction of the cool darkness. Not the monster under your bed or the torments in your head type of darkness but the soft cool darkness of rest and renewal and letting go. Once you succumb to that you will ache less. You will find yourself at the shore like a whole sand dollar without even a nick. Shored up perfection.
GEMINI
Sometimes it seems you have been through so much with certain friends that you could write a survival guide of sorts. What it comes down to is this: love them but don't let them objectify you. Turn the corner.
CANCER
Don't let yourself suffer from an atrophy of the mind. Stretch those muscles. Challenge yourself. Watch THE HOURS, FUR and FAR and AWAY. Channel Nicole Kidman this month. She is scrappy. She is dynamic. She chooses roles that challenge her and the viewer. Don't be afraid to change. Don't be afraid to surprise and even vex those who might think they have you pegged.
LEO
Now is all you have. If you keep on the past like the past you will disintegrate.
VIRGO
Do you remember the part in Bambi where his mother dies? That is such a sad part. His life is so uncertain He will have to fend for himself. By the end of the movie Bambi has his own family, his own life. Even though he suffered that unimaginable tragedy of losing his mother when he needed her most, in time he found happiness. Like Bambi, you now need to fend for yourself and find your own family, your own life. By the time all is said and done your own tragedy will be behind you. You will find happiness as long as you don't stop trying and as long as you continue to remain open to the magic of life. Don't be afraid to smile.
LIBRA
Would you believe that one friend who no longer speaks to you misses you sometimes? That even though they have moved on they want you to be happy and they even remember the good times fondly? Allow yourself to see the best in people. Allow yourself to loosen your fist. You have done a lot of good recently. Doing good doesn't give you a license to do bad. But you know that. Have faith in the universe. The universe has faith in you.
SCORPIO
Sometimes you feel you are a sad clown. Isn't that better and braver than just being sad?
SAGITTARIUS
Allow yourself those extra minutes in bed. Allow yourself to wander through the images in your head. Make a soundtrack for these last days of summer.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
August Monthly Horoscopes
Photo from the film Wizard of Oz with Judy Garland.
CAPRICORN
Confusion? Give it up to the sky... just throw it in the air like silver confetti and see where it lands. This month you will learn that you can't control everything and you'll be happy to know that the stars will arrange things better for you than you could have possibly arranged for yourself even if you could have control over everything.
AQUARIUS
What is worth fighting for? Are you scared to fight for something you believe in? This month you need to prioritize. Forget the rest - focus that rocket of yours only on the ripe and fertile core. You know what you know. Don't let popular opinion sway you.
PISCES
"The answer my friend is blowin in the wind..." - Bob Dylan. Don't lament. Let go. Change into your famed swan form and do.
ARIES
Be cool as the keys on a piano sitting in a marble foyer in Austria. Be a player and don't get played. Unless you want those hands on you... Your echo like a siren song will lure those sailors - but be weary because sailors rarely stay when the dance ends.
TAURUS
You feel sometimes like clothes on a line - hung out to dry. But isn't there something lovely and vulnerable and secret about someone's faded pink cotton camisole waving in the sun? Ignore those curious glances cast your way this month- just be.
GEMINI
Rain on a window pane. Paint on a canvas drop cloth. Blood? They'll shoot their daggers but they can't reach your heart. Don't bother shooting back. Shooting back would involve acknowledging them and that is what they are aiming for. Just move on.
CANCER
They say most people have too little vitamin D. They say we should get 20 minutes of sun 3 times a week. BUT more sun than that is bad for us. It is a fine line... Sun can hurt is in large doses but without any we could get sick. Other people can be like this. You need to be around other people and socialize in moderation. You actually need to socialize less than you think. Many people are so overstimulated and dependent on constantly communicating with others that they can't even hear their inner voice anymore.
LEO
Fall is alluring but you need to savor this last bit of summer. Happy birthday darling.
VIRGO
Sometimes it is good to roll up your silk sleeves and sweat and toil. Toiling may not be glamorous but the spoils of your toils will be fabulous!
LIBRA
Brocade and orange peels... cotton balls and moss... textures.. how many textures do we take for granted in nature? And what about the textures in and of the ones we love? The loved ones you see everyday you might take for granted. Feel them.
SCORPIO
You will take your own little magical mystery tour of the mind. In many ways you love this last bit of summer. The heat and the promise of fall suit you well. So well that someone might just fall for you.
SAGITTARIUS
"Video killed the radio stars.." and faceb@@k killed mysp@ce and twitter killed faceb@@k... sometimes you get wrapped up in the latest fad but really you can see it is all bullshit. Don't be afraid to delete your profiles and put the mystery back into your life.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Weekend Tarot
"I'm drinking stars!" - Frere Dom Perignon
CHAMPAGNE SUPERNOVA
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
lyrics by Oasis
Photos by Karl Lagerfeld
CAPRICORN
6 of SWORDS
You restore order. Take stock and rest up. Good things are comin round the bend.
AQUARIUS
QUEEN of WANDS
A woman of creativity and love, the queen of wands symbolizes you or someone close. Please yourself and then others too. This card makes me think of Angelina Jolie.
PISCES
6 of CUPS
Like a figure 8 past and present comingle. Accept your past. Move forward using the lessons learned. This can bring a new path.
ARIES
7 of SWORDS
Lies are a sad part of life. Use your instincts to decipher true from false. Protect your heart.
TAURUS
6 of PENTACLES
Abundance and a safe haven for you. Your kindness boomerangs. You will get that cash too.
GEMINI
5 of CUPS
A broken heart? Music therapy and color theory are the cures for now.
CANCER
JUSTICE
Oh sweet sweet justice... sweet if you have been fair. If you haven't been fair? If you are mentally ill she may take pity on you. If you have had a change of heart she make take mercy. But if you have been knowingly cruel? She might just kick your ass. But she will give you another chance to be happy.
LEO
10 of WANDS
Unburden yourself. You don't have to save the world. Just be kind to yourself and others. We are all in this together.
VIRGO
TEMPERANCE
Cool as a cucumber and soft as a lamb... you are sheathed in calm. And if you aren't? Find the calm place within.
LIBRA
3 of WANDS
The perfect time to start something new and profitable. Money will only make you more creative.
SCORPIO
8 of SWORDS
Bad luck is out of your control. What you can control are your reactions.
SAGITTARIUS
WHEEL of FORTUNE
Change.... for the better
CHAMPAGNE SUPERNOVA
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
lyrics by Oasis
Photos by Karl Lagerfeld
CAPRICORN
6 of SWORDS
You restore order. Take stock and rest up. Good things are comin round the bend.
AQUARIUS
QUEEN of WANDS
A woman of creativity and love, the queen of wands symbolizes you or someone close. Please yourself and then others too. This card makes me think of Angelina Jolie.
PISCES
6 of CUPS
Like a figure 8 past and present comingle. Accept your past. Move forward using the lessons learned. This can bring a new path.
ARIES
7 of SWORDS
Lies are a sad part of life. Use your instincts to decipher true from false. Protect your heart.
TAURUS
6 of PENTACLES
Abundance and a safe haven for you. Your kindness boomerangs. You will get that cash too.
GEMINI
5 of CUPS
A broken heart? Music therapy and color theory are the cures for now.
CANCER
JUSTICE
Oh sweet sweet justice... sweet if you have been fair. If you haven't been fair? If you are mentally ill she may take pity on you. If you have had a change of heart she make take mercy. But if you have been knowingly cruel? She might just kick your ass. But she will give you another chance to be happy.
LEO
10 of WANDS
Unburden yourself. You don't have to save the world. Just be kind to yourself and others. We are all in this together.
VIRGO
TEMPERANCE
Cool as a cucumber and soft as a lamb... you are sheathed in calm. And if you aren't? Find the calm place within.
LIBRA
3 of WANDS
The perfect time to start something new and profitable. Money will only make you more creative.
SCORPIO
8 of SWORDS
Bad luck is out of your control. What you can control are your reactions.
SAGITTARIUS
WHEEL of FORTUNE
Change.... for the better
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Weekly Fortunes
I'm not sure who took this photo of Andy and Edie. Just know that I didn't take it.
I haven't done an I-CHING style reading from a book for awhile. I decided to use THE PHILOSOPHY OF ANDY WARHOL (1975). All of the fortunes are Andy Warhol quotes from this book.
CAPRICORN
"At a certain point in my life... I began to feel that I was picking up problems from the people I knew... these problems of friends were spreading themselves onto me like germs."
AQUARIUS
"Rich people don't carry their money in wallets or Gucci this-es or Valentino thats. They carry their money in a business envelope."
PISCES
"I would spend all summer listening to the radio and lying in bed with my Charlie McCarthy doll and my un-cut-out cut-out paperdolls all over the spread and under the pillow."
ARIES
"I believe in blue jeans too."
TAURUS
"underwear power"
GEMINI
"I guess time is actually the best plot - the suspense of seeing if you'll remember."
CANCER
"I always think about the people who build buildings and then they're not around anymore. Or a movie with a crowd scene and everybody's dead. It's frightening."
LEO
"I also have to admit that I can't tolerate eating leftovers. Food is my great extravagance."
VIRGO
"Weight isn't important the way the magazines make you think it is. I know a girl who just looks at her face in the medicine cabinet mirror and never looks below her shoulders, and she's four hundred pounds but she doesn't see all that, she just sees a beautiful face and therefore she thinks she's a beauty. And therefore I think she's a beauty too, because I usually accept people on the basis of their self-images, because their self images have more to do with the way they think than their objective -images do. Maybe she is six hundred pounds, who knows. If she doesn't care, I don't."
LIBRA
"Everyday is a new day because I can't remember the day before."
SCORPIO
"I have a fantasy about money: I'm walking down the street and I hear somebody say - in a whisper - "There goes the richest person in the world."
SAGITTARIUS
"The smell of chocolate was driving me nuts but I didn't say a word. I didn't even sigh or moan. I just thought of my pimples and gall bladder and kept on walking."
SA
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