New Year's Eve with Jim Jarmusch, a man and some rabbits

Mystery Train makes me long for Memphis.
Down by Law makes me long for you know where - home.
Stranger than Paradise makes me long for something intangible.

2010 was a wonderful year and I am filled with gratitude. I hope 2011 is even better. My guardian angel tells me it will be the best yet. For everyone I have ever known no matter what passed between us I hope 2011 is full of joy for all of you.

xoxo
Starcake

End of Year Quote from Henry Miller

“And the more I looked at it, the less interesting it became. It only goes to show you there’s nothing to it after all, especially when it’s shaved. It’s the hair that makes it mysterious. That’s why a statue leaves you cold. Only once I saw a real cunt on a statue- that was by Rodin." - Henry Valentine Miller

lost and delirious: if you've never fallen, if you have never jumped you have never lived...

And if you have fallen and if you have jumped and pulled yourself up by the straps of your stupid heart and lived to tell the tale... if you have done this you are a queen no matter what they say or how they paint you.... the story is yours





all you have to do is tell your story and you will live forever

Scenes from An Antique Mall

It's A Wonderful Life

Jackson Square and you were there...

Oh my...

Take the Quiz here!

beautiful inconvenience

photo from AP


painting Rooftops in the Snow, Paris by Gustave Caillebotte

As it has been said:
Love and a cough
cannot be concealed
even a small cough
even a small love
- Anne Sexton

Song for Winter ... Not as Sad as it Sounds

An Apple a Day...

I wish Fiona Apple would release another album.

I have been posting a lot of random stuff. Must be the weather.

Musical Time Machine to 2004 (if you want to go)

Sunday Snowy Sunday: Time Machine to Destiny's Child

December Monthly Horoscopes

(I didn't shoot these. I found them on photographyreview.com and britishlarder.co.uk.)

CAPRICORN
There is prettiness in some sadness, sexiness in rage, and glamour in languor, but the most stunning beauty is in forgiveness and joy... tis the season after all... light into the darkness like a prairie star.

AQUARIUS
Surround yourself with those who love you. If you don't have people who love you at least you won't be disappointed because it is usually when we have the expectation that someone loves us that they can hurt us the most. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't try.

PISCES
You have the ability now find the discipline. Books are friends that always talk to you.

ARIES
You may travel far this month but remember as Proust said that the true voyage takes place in the mind.

TAURUS
Don't fear the cold... see how the snow glitters.

GEMINI
What should one do in a world so full of betrayal? Dance, smoke and laugh.

CANCER
Pay attention to the details and do it yourself if you want it done right. Carry on.

LEO
Let yourself fall on the softness of the season. There is no reason not to enjoy every minute. Relax. Make mochas at home.

VIRGO
See those people struggling? Lend them a hand. There is an angel living inside you.

LIBRA
The people who are close enough to touch are the ones who deserve your time and attention.

SCORPIO
Feel like the walls are closing in on you? Take a walk under the open sky. Listen to some Songs in A Minor by Alicia Keys.

SAGITTARIUS
Reconnect with those you've lost touch with. You can grow in different directions without growing apart.

Lost and Found (the rescue)

(I did not paint this, but I wish I did. Either William Hunt or Albert Schneke painted this.)

awesomeness

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November Monthly Horoscopes

CAPRICORN
What is the main thing you'd like to change about yourself? Is it something that is part of your very fiber? Is it something that does no wrong but that you feel a strange shame of? If it does no wrong and is truly part of you you must reconcile with it. Self loathing is pase my dears. If it is some bad habit though that does harm and or is extractable from you, toss it!

AQUARIUS
My darlings what a special nook exists in my heart for you. How confused you get at times... and other times so crystal clear. Just remember one thing my dear: life is nothing nothing nothing but smoke... blue smoke, brilliant blue smoke, blessed blue smoke, breathtaking blue smoke.... poof! It all makes sense now doesn't it?

PISCES
Who gonna check you boo? The only voice you need to listen to is your own.

ARIES
Yes some people have more luck then you. Don't dwell on it and don't blame them for it. There are some who look at you and wish they had what you have. Don't gloat and don't rub it in. Peace and thanksgiving as the leaves fall where they will.

TAURUS
Reach out to someone close who is confused as hell right now. Throw away your dildo. Dildos are just another marketing scheme like secretaries day. Sitcoms and so forth love to make it seem like women love their dildos so much. What a load of crap. Nothing can replace real flesh you know. And what you need to do most this month is keep it real,,, I know that can be hard for you because you get nervous and you love to play pretend.... but do try to keep it real.

GEMINI
Are you scared you might have bit off more then you can chew? Even if that is true you can always spit it out. It is how you spit it out that makes a difference. If you gag and bang your fists on the table before spewing it all over the guests gathered round, well you'll probably feel like crap and regret doing that. HOWEVER, if you discreetly spit that too big bite into your napkin before quietly excusing yourself you'll make it just fine.

CANCER
In a way my little crabs you are much like a snake that every so often sheds its skin. Don't let others make you feel bad for that. You are under no obligation to be consistent. And if you happen to feel you still fit the skin you are in, don't shed it just for the sake of change. Progress for the sake of progress leads to problems. Listen to the voice within.

LEO
Life is both testing you and blessing you. Seize the reins and don't let go. This horse won't buck you.

VIRGO
Yes you were too hard on them, many of them, hundreds of them. You have learned to be more accepting. You have learned to be sweeter. You still make jokes at other people's expense and you need to work on that. You are beautiful and you need to let that someone praise you like they should.

LIBRA
Underneath it all you are scared. Are you scared of losing or scared of winning? If your intention is good and your heart steadfast you have nothing to fear. You have been repressing your sweet and sexy side lately. Don't do that.

SCORPIO
Step it up a notch. Try drinking a hot toddy when you feel under the weather.

SAGITTARIUS
You think you have to have a safety net for a lot of your endeavors, but in life that is not always possible.

TREATS & TRICKS i did not take these pictures (but i wish i did)

Hausu

Day of the Dead Soundtrack

Heart Shaped Rock

In spite of it all that heart shaped rock still belongs to you.

Love Letter to a Nowhere Boy

At the end of last month I found myself under the spell of the Bard... and now as October comes to a close I found myself in love with another Brit... John Lennon. I always liked John Lennon and found the songs he wrote resonated with me. I love most Beatles songs. I love "The Ballad of John and Yoko" and "So this is Christmas" and "Imagine." Mpre than ever his vision of peace is important. As an eighties baby John Lennon had already become a legend and been killed tragically by the time I was born. I thought of him as an icon. Until this weekend. This weekend I realized the obvious: John Lennon was just a boy. A funny, sad, fucked up boy - at times going nowhere... a boy from a broken home, lower middle class just like the boys I went to school with, just like me... and smart enough to treasure love more than hate.
Just a boy singing straw into gold....

This weekend I saw a film called NOWHERE BOY.









I'm excited about seeing more from this director Sam Taylor-Wood and more of these actors Thomas Sangster and Aaron Johnson. I also want to read the memoir by his half sister Julia Baird that this film is based on. This movie was fucking spectacular.

October Monthly Horoscopes Boos

photos by the great clarence laughlin

CAPRICORN
Well well look at you coming into your own! You know fall is the time to fly or fall in love. With yourself or with another person get into a groove that comes naturally. Stop striving and just be. Don't worry if you things aren't how you planned. Consider dancing alone in a room to some old school house music.

AQUARIUS
I'd worry about you my darling if I didn't know that no matter how far you fling yourself you always boomerang back to the proper person or place. Just don't take too long because in this ever shifting world you never know what can happen.

PISCES
Like the clones in the movie NEVER LET ME GO take each day like you might "complete" at any time. Time is a wastin. Don't take anyone or anything for granted. Accept who you are and others will.

ARIES
Your inner demons find some peace this month and it is about time. Give yourself a break. Love your body. Take care of yourself, masturbate and take time to celebrate yourself. Remember that there is enough awesome in the world for you to be awesome and others to be awesome as well.

TAURUS
Shadows and fog and carnival music - you love the mystery of this month. Open your eyes and not your legs when you meet a charismatic stranger. Listen to some old school gospel music and sing to stray cats.

GEMINI
Take the next step toward that goal. You are closer than you think. Have the balls to risk it all if it is really that important.

CANCER
Give back to that person who always lends you a hand. Even something small will thrill them coming from you. Silver eyeshadow suits you at the end of the month.

LEO
Freedom from constraints grows near. Don't fear freedom even though it might feel strange at first.

VIRGO
Sometimes you hate yourself and then you do something cruel to make yourself feel better but it only makes it worse. You think you are punishing them but you are punishing yourself. Go soft, be gentle - you deserve a soft place to fall.

LIBRA
Don't forget who you are - a good person but no better than any other. I kid you not. None of us is better than anyother. That being said you have a special beauty of your own that you can share. You were born for a reason - for a good reason. We are all glad you were born - take heart. Celebrate this month and shine.

SCORPIO
Are you afraid of getting hurt again? Do you find yourself reliving an exchange with a beautiful someone you just met? Do you find yourself wanting to have sex with this person again and again. You could be perfect for eachother. Don't worry what others think.

SAGITTARIUS
Never lose that instinct of yours to give money to street musicians. Is it time for you to try to love again?

"Doubt thou the stars are fire"

Doubt Thou the Stars Are Fire

Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love.


Hamlet
Act II, Scene II



Ethan Hawke was the best Hamlet ever until last night.. I did the "to a nunnery" scene with a stranger in a back office and then we sat quietly and then we did the scene again in a dim room.. intense.. I'm reluctant to actually put a word on the feelings that scene with him provoked. i'd done the scene with others and only this one Hamlet made me true true Ophelia... hurt and attracted and trying to put the pieces of him back together and his hands on me I go over it again and again in the fog of a small space and in the clear light of day and imagine what it would be like to kiss the lips of my Hamlet for during that scene our hearts beat palpably as one and our clarity resounded... What haunts came to light in his eyes I saw with such pristine clarity and surprise he saw the the same haunts in mine.. startling... and maybe what touched me the most was not his hands though his hands did touch me perfectly as night touches the grass, what touched me most was what we saw and our reactions.. he saw all too clearly into my eyes and what he saw surprised him but didn't scare him and he drew me closer than any has dared and I did the same for him... him who? Was it him or was it Hamlet? Was it me or was it Ophelia? Was it real or was it the real God given spell power of Shakespeare? Both? I don't need to ask if he felt it too because I know right well he did... round and round... from 1980 to now from the bottom of the map to the top... "never doubt that I love"

ps

October horoscopes coming out sometime on Saturday or Sunday... how I love October my ghosts!

September Monthly Horoscopes

Dear Readers- You may have noticed that I have discontinued the weekly fortunes and the weekend tarot. My schedule has just not allowed for me to write those lately. The weekly fortunes will start again next week. Also I have been unable to read and comment on the blogs I love reading. Hopefully by next week I will be able to read more as well.
xo
starcake

photo by Irving Penn

CAPRICORN
Do you remember shooting them in the heart? Does it come back to you now as in a dream? It wasn't a dream, you did it and worst of all you justified it with petty concerns. And worst of all you did it because they were different and that scared you. HOWEVER they have risen and forgiven you. Forgive yourself now. You deserve nothing but happiness these days.

AQUARIUS
What do you think you are doing? How does that compare with what you are actually doing? You know there is only one person you think of when you climax. They think of you too. So why are you not together? The reasons for that separation might be legit or they might be trivial. If they are trivial toss them aside, swallow your pride and love.

PISCES
Odd how some people love you for the exact reasons others shun you. Some who shun you probably love you too but they just know they can't handle someone like you. It is a compliment really.

ARIES
Undo that knot you have tied yourself into. Spread out. Breathe. Don't waste your power. Don't waste your life.

TAURUS
Succumb to the seduction of the cool darkness. Not the monster under your bed or the torments in your head type of darkness but the soft cool darkness of rest and renewal and letting go. Once you succumb to that you will ache less. You will find yourself at the shore like a whole sand dollar without even a nick. Shored up perfection.

GEMINI
Sometimes it seems you have been through so much with certain friends that you could write a survival guide of sorts. What it comes down to is this: love them but don't let them objectify you. Turn the corner.

CANCER
Don't let yourself suffer from an atrophy of the mind. Stretch those muscles. Challenge yourself. Watch THE HOURS, FUR and FAR and AWAY. Channel Nicole Kidman this month. She is scrappy. She is dynamic. She chooses roles that challenge her and the viewer. Don't be afraid to change. Don't be afraid to surprise and even vex those who might think they have you pegged.

LEO
Now is all you have. If you keep on the past like the past you will disintegrate.

VIRGO
Do you remember the part in Bambi where his mother dies? That is such a sad part. His life is so uncertain He will have to fend for himself. By the end of the movie Bambi has his own family, his own life. Even though he suffered that unimaginable tragedy of losing his mother when he needed her most, in time he found happiness. Like Bambi, you now need to fend for yourself and find your own family, your own life. By the time all is said and done your own tragedy will be behind you. You will find happiness as long as you don't stop trying and as long as you continue to remain open to the magic of life. Don't be afraid to smile.

LIBRA
Would you believe that one friend who no longer speaks to you misses you sometimes? That even though they have moved on they want you to be happy and they even remember the good times fondly? Allow yourself to see the best in people. Allow yourself to loosen your fist. You have done a lot of good recently. Doing good doesn't give you a license to do bad. But you know that. Have faith in the universe. The universe has faith in you.

SCORPIO
Sometimes you feel you are a sad clown. Isn't that better and braver than just being sad?

SAGITTARIUS
Allow yourself those extra minutes in bed. Allow yourself to wander through the images in your head. Make a soundtrack for these last days of summer.

August Monthly Horoscopes

Photo from the film Wizard of Oz with Judy Garland.

CAPRICORN
Confusion? Give it up to the sky... just throw it in the air like silver confetti and see where it lands. This month you will learn that you can't control everything and you'll be happy to know that the stars will arrange things better for you than you could have possibly arranged for yourself even if you could have control over everything.

AQUARIUS
What is worth fighting for? Are you scared to fight for something you believe in? This month you need to prioritize. Forget the rest - focus that rocket of yours only on the ripe and fertile core. You know what you know. Don't let popular opinion sway you.

PISCES
"The answer my friend is blowin in the wind..." - Bob Dylan. Don't lament. Let go. Change into your famed swan form and do.

ARIES
Be cool as the keys on a piano sitting in a marble foyer in Austria. Be a player and don't get played. Unless you want those hands on you... Your echo like a siren song will lure those sailors - but be weary because sailors rarely stay when the dance ends.

TAURUS
You feel sometimes like clothes on a line - hung out to dry. But isn't there something lovely and vulnerable and secret about someone's faded pink cotton camisole waving in the sun? Ignore those curious glances cast your way this month- just be.

GEMINI
Rain on a window pane. Paint on a canvas drop cloth. Blood? They'll shoot their daggers but they can't reach your heart. Don't bother shooting back. Shooting back would involve acknowledging them and that is what they are aiming for. Just move on.

CANCER
They say most people have too little vitamin D. They say we should get 20 minutes of sun 3 times a week. BUT more sun than that is bad for us. It is a fine line... Sun can hurt is in large doses but without any we could get sick. Other people can be like this. You need to be around other people and socialize in moderation. You actually need to socialize less than you think. Many people are so overstimulated and dependent on constantly communicating with others that they can't even hear their inner voice anymore.

LEO
Fall is alluring but you need to savor this last bit of summer. Happy birthday darling.

VIRGO
Sometimes it is good to roll up your silk sleeves and sweat and toil. Toiling may not be glamorous but the spoils of your toils will be fabulous!

LIBRA
Brocade and orange peels... cotton balls and moss... textures.. how many textures do we take for granted in nature? And what about the textures in and of the ones we love? The loved ones you see everyday you might take for granted. Feel them.

SCORPIO
You will take your own little magical mystery tour of the mind. In many ways you love this last bit of summer. The heat and the promise of fall suit you well. So well that someone might just fall for you.

SAGITTARIUS
"Video killed the radio stars.." and faceb@@k killed mysp@ce and twitter killed faceb@@k... sometimes you get wrapped up in the latest fad but really you can see it is all bullshit. Don't be afraid to delete your profiles and put the mystery back into your life.

Weekend Tarot

"I'm drinking stars!" - Frere Dom Perignon

CHAMPAGNE SUPERNOVA
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye


lyrics by Oasis
Photos by Karl Lagerfeld

CAPRICORN
6 of SWORDS
You restore order. Take stock and rest up. Good things are comin round the bend.

AQUARIUS
QUEEN of WANDS
A woman of creativity and love, the queen of wands symbolizes you or someone close. Please yourself and then others too. This card makes me think of Angelina Jolie.

PISCES
6 of CUPS
Like a figure 8 past and present comingle. Accept your past. Move forward using the lessons learned. This can bring a new path.

ARIES
7 of SWORDS
Lies are a sad part of life. Use your instincts to decipher true from false. Protect your heart.

TAURUS
6 of PENTACLES
Abundance and a safe haven for you. Your kindness boomerangs. You will get that cash too.

GEMINI
5 of CUPS
A broken heart? Music therapy and color theory are the cures for now.

CANCER
JUSTICE
Oh sweet sweet justice... sweet if you have been fair. If you haven't been fair? If you are mentally ill she may take pity on you. If you have had a change of heart she make take mercy. But if you have been knowingly cruel? She might just kick your ass. But she will give you another chance to be happy.

LEO
10 of WANDS
Unburden yourself. You don't have to save the world. Just be kind to yourself and others. We are all in this together.

VIRGO
TEMPERANCE
Cool as a cucumber and soft as a lamb... you are sheathed in calm. And if you aren't? Find the calm place within.

LIBRA
3 of WANDS
The perfect time to start something new and profitable. Money will only make you more creative.

SCORPIO
8 of SWORDS
Bad luck is out of your control. What you can control are your reactions.

SAGITTARIUS
WHEEL of FORTUNE
Change.... for the better

Weekly Fortunes

I'm not sure who took this photo of Andy and Edie. Just know that I didn't take it.

I haven't done an I-CHING style reading from a book for awhile. I decided to use THE PHILOSOPHY OF ANDY WARHOL (1975). All of the fortunes are Andy Warhol quotes from this book.


CAPRICORN
"At a certain point in my life... I began to feel that I was picking up problems from the people I knew... these problems of friends were spreading themselves onto me like germs."

AQUARIUS
"Rich people don't carry their money in wallets or Gucci this-es or Valentino thats. They carry their money in a business envelope."

PISCES
"I would spend all summer listening to the radio and lying in bed with my Charlie McCarthy doll and my un-cut-out cut-out paperdolls all over the spread and under the pillow."

ARIES
"I believe in blue jeans too."

TAURUS
"underwear power"

GEMINI
"I guess time is actually the best plot - the suspense of seeing if you'll remember."

CANCER
"I always think about the people who build buildings and then they're not around anymore. Or a movie with a crowd scene and everybody's dead. It's frightening."

LEO
"I also have to admit that I can't tolerate eating leftovers. Food is my great extravagance."

VIRGO
"Weight isn't important the way the magazines make you think it is. I know a girl who just looks at her face in the medicine cabinet mirror and never looks below her shoulders, and she's four hundred pounds but she doesn't see all that, she just sees a beautiful face and therefore she thinks she's a beauty. And therefore I think she's a beauty too, because I usually accept people on the basis of their self-images, because their self images have more to do with the way they think than their objective -images do. Maybe she is six hundred pounds, who knows. If she doesn't care, I don't."

LIBRA
"Everyday is a new day because I can't remember the day before."

SCORPIO
"I have a fantasy about money: I'm walking down the street and I hear somebody say - in a whisper - "There goes the richest person in the world."

SAGITTARIUS
"The smell of chocolate was driving me nuts but I didn't say a word. I didn't even sigh or moan. I just thought of my pimples and gall bladder and kept on walking."
SA

Weekend Tarot

painting by elizabeth peyton


CAPRICORN
4 of PENTACLES
Plans are fleshing out and you should be proud. Feelin good and lookin good.

AQUARIUS
8 of PENTACLES
Use that talent you have to get that money you need. This might mark the start of a new career.

PISCES
QUEEN of SWORDS
Inventive and graceful you will catch the star you seek.

ARIES
KING of CUPS
Staying distant may be wise but lonely.

TAURUS
6 of PENTACLES
You will get all you give and more.

GEMINI
9 of SWORDS
Determination and pluck will pull you out of this rabbit hole.

CANCER
QUEEN of CUPS
Keep a dream journal this weekend.

LEO
PAGE of WANDS
All talk and no tickle? Forget about it.

VIRGO
THE TOWER (la maison Dieu)
The best laid plans come undone. Don't blame yourself for circumstances out of your control.

LIBRA
5 of WANDS
You will have to remain diligent to pass this test.

SCORPIO
7 of CUPS
Trust your gut and you will achieve your dream.

SAGITTARIUS
KING of SWORDS
Ambition will propel you. Just make sure you pay attention to form and detail. Stay motivated and alert.

Weekly Fortunes

photo by Cirenaica Moreira


CAPRICORN
Everything you do this week do with honor. Treat all creatures even the ugly, scary or annoying with compassion.

AQUARIUS
Jealousy destroys faster than rat poison. Don't compare your life to others. Rave on.

PISCES
Don't worry about adding an extra flair or flourish to anything. Keep it simple.

ARIES
Pamper yourself in little ways all through the week. On Thursday or Friday give back to the universe by doing something big for someone else.

TAURUS
You have a kind and wise heart. Continue to look past small flaws in loved ones.

GEMINI
Don't waste too much time on petty concerns. Drink plenty of water so you can bloom. Remember that sometimes sleep is the answer.

CANCER
The road less travelled has always been your road of choice. Don't change that just to please others. On the other hand remember that the road less travelled doesn't have to be the most dangerous.

LEO
Take control of messy situations. March into the future.... Arm yourself with a smile.

VIRGO
Break bread only with those who don't objectify you or try to tell you who you are.

LIBRA
Kindness and wisdom prevail. Have the confidence to let go.

SCORPIO
Live in the now - easier said than done. This week you come close to being fully in the present and you have moments of nirvana.

SAGITTARIUS
Don't be disappointed just because someone does not match your expectations. Give them a chance and what they offer you might exceed your expectations.

Weekend Tarot

photo by Art Shay of Simone de Beauvoir in Chicago 1952

CAPRICORN
THE WORLD
Success! This is a landmark period for you.

AQUARIUS
THE SUN
Enjoy this joy and peace while it lasts.

PISCES
9 of SWORDS
You will get through this.

ARIES
ACE of PENTACLES
Your wisdom brings prosperity and the prosperity will bring some peace.

TAURUS
PAGE of SWORD
Check the facts and take your time.

GEMINI
THE MAGICIAN
Alchemy.

CANCER
3 of CUPS
Rejuvenation of the heart. Bloom.

LEO
KING of CUPS
Resolution. You can control your emotions, but is that the best?

VIRGO
6 of WANDS
You can and will mount these hurdles. Good news.

LIBRA
THE HANGED MAN
Cock-blocked for now.

SCORPIO
KNIGHT of CUPS
Can he walk the walk as well as he talks the talk?

SAGITTARIUS
THE CHARIOT
You can lay down your swords and enjoy the victory.

Weekly Fortunes

photo by franchesca woodman.


CAPRICORN
"The child is gone." The flowers on the orchid have withered and fallen, some fell off the stem even before they had the chance to bloom. Soon the whole plant might die? I don't think so. Get out your watering pail and water it. Remember that too much water causes root rot and too little water causes drought. The key? BALANCE. And for you too: enough water, enough sun, enough wind and rain?

AQUARIUS
That icky feeling that lingers like gum on the bottom of your shoe only more sticky. You'll have to confront it if you want it gone.

PISCES
Don't cover for them anymore. Covering for them buries you. No more cover ups.

ARIES
What is this mess? Wipe your face off and keep your head up. Quicksand ain't got nothin on you, you beautiful creature.

TAURUS
You can't plan everything. The energy has stumbled between you. You need space.

GEMINI
Foxy foxy gemini the last one standing in musical chairs. Have fun with your freedom. Get a permanent marker and write a poem on the thigh of a naked person. If you don't have access to a naked person then imagine writing a poem on the thigh of someone you'd like to get naked.

CANCER
Enough already! You can feel a change comin round the bend and it isn't the kind that comes round the bend to take your money and sully your innocence. Not this time, nope. It is the kind that will polish your spirit and help you get ahead.

LEO
Communicate your needs. Break patterns that no longer suit you. Don't forget to play.

VIRGO
If you want to shave your pubic hair do it for you and not because some asshole wants you to fall in line and look like everyone else. And that goes for any other alterations you might be considering.

LIBRA
If you offer someone $500 and they take it you can't blame them for it. Don't play yourself as a martyr. Look in the mirror. You have the potential to look divine.

SCORPIO
Someone might be a lost puppy, a faithful bitch or a wolf at your door. Keep a safe distance until you figure it out.

SAGITTARIUS
Treasure the gypsy debris she left behind. Like the pink manic panic under your fingernails or that sweet scent on your face. You might just meet again. Get out the pinata and the tiny sombrero. Take a swing under the crystal stars. What falls out is all yours.

Weekend Tarot

movie poster from the film COCO BEFORE CHANEL

CAPRICORN
PAGE of PENTACLES
The key to keeping cash in your wallet is not spending a lot while earning. This card indicates that you will master this.

AQUARIUS
6 of WANDS
I'd like to make a toast to you Aquarius. Good news!

PISCES
4 of WANDS
Reap the fruits of your creativity. You're movin on up.

ARIES
7 of CUPS
Go with your gut to get the gold stars you deserve.

TAURUS
2 of PENTACLES
You handle your biz like an ace.

GEMINI
THE STAR
vigor * new life * joy * imagination * dreams realized

CANCER
THE MAGICIAN
Presto change - o let the observers be stunned as you spin straw into gold and gold into more gold.

LEO
WHEEL of FORTUNE
Fortuitous destiny transforms your life.

VIRGO
THE HERMIT
Examine within yourself. You crave quiet and privacy.

LIBRA
THE DEVIL
Whatever has happened in the past. Whatever people or life or circumstance or you have done to you in the past, your life from NOW on is up to you. There is a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. Both call your name. It is up to you which side you will listen to. Do you want to be good or bad? Do you want life to be a sweet heaven and a safe haven or a hell of your own making?

SCORPIO
THE TOWER (la maison Dieu)
Destiny has a way of unwrapping the present. Something you think you hold dear collapses. This is not because of bad karma. Recover your ego. Keep your head up.

SAGITTARIUS
PAGE of SWORDS
Stay at the top of your game and ahead of the game.

July July July Monthly Horoscopes

photo by franchesca woodman


CAPRICORN
Don't be afraid to reach out and touch someone. Remember the last time you got burned? Well it was sorta your fault for turning the gas up too high and sprinkling oil all around and then walking away in that mysterious CAP fashion... This time things will go much better in the heart department. July is a strange month for you. So many summertime vibes kind of makes reality melt and bend around the edges for you. Just leave some crumbs behind you if you wander into the forest of the mind so you can make your way back to reality in time to be productive, functional and utterly honest.

AQUARIUS
This month you need some things: 1. new undergarments 2. a biography of someone you admire 3. strawberries 4. someone special to appreciate how you taste like strawberries

PISCES
Things are really revved up and rockin for you this July. I suggest getting out the ol Nirvanna cd and listening to the poetry of fellow fishy fish Kurt Cobain. Remember how he famously said he'd rather be hated for who he was than loved for who he wasn't? Apply that wisdom to the stuff you are workin on now. Keep it real. Your beauty comes from your raw edges and askew methods.

ARIES
Under your belt you hide your weapons and it is time to lay those weapons down. It is time to pick up those shiny ribbons and daisy chains and share. Spend some time on the Beaches of Agnes Vardas if you can. July is that summer dream. Don't let the weeks pass without fully feeling as many moments as you can hold in your throat. Don't forget to let your heart roar.

TAURUS
You can afford to break some rules this month. You deserve to break free. Don't break your own heart though.

GEMINI
I would hold you and kiss you if I could but I don't know you and we are strangers but there is someone you do know who is not a stranger but is a little strange like you who can bring you some comfort this month. Don't hide from them. I miss those nights on the roof too. You are not alone.

CANCER
Sometimes the world is stranger than fiction. Most people we meet will let us down. But that doesn't mean we should cut off all ties with all people. It just means we should guard the sacred things until we find someone whose actions prove worthy. Nothing but actions when it comes to trust. Love can be easily spoken but rarely lived. July is a time to write a letter to the past and watch it burn into ash.

LEO
You are one of the most sincere people but also one of the most afraid to displease sometimes. You deserve to have someone hold the boat steady for you sometimes while you rock.

VIRGO
It is important during this heat to stay sensual but at the same time you don't want to give too much away. You can only feign toughness for so long. Consider paring down. Remove the unessential. Dare to remove the cage and to release the petite caravelle. Set sail.

LIBRA
This July you will make that leap. It might feel like a leap away from yourself but it is actually a leap closer to the real you. Don't play pointless games. You glamorized head games for too long. The real glamour is in owning up and honesty. Surprise them with the fireworks inside. Don't do anything that will put ghosts in your eyes.

SCORPIO
So you spilled the carnations on the dirty linoleum floor... it isn't too late. Don't be too proud to bend down and collect them. They are just as pretty and smell sweet. Where they have fallen doesn't matter. Where you are sending them is what matters. Sing to them.

SAGITTARIUS
Plants need love like people tothrive and like plants people need water and sunshine and sometimes to be still and grow in the right direction. There is something sexy about ivy isn't there? How it can cover a building in green? And it does it quietly without boasting or tweeting or anything. It just does its thing. Do your thing sweetpea.

Weekend Tarot

photo by Richard Avedon

"Independence Day" by Elliot Smith

Future butterfly, gonna spend the day higher than high
You'll be beautiful confusion
Ooh, once I was you

I saw you caught between all the people out making a scene
And a bright ideal, tomorrow
Ooh, don't go too far
Stay who you are

Everybody knows
Everybody knows
Everybody knows
You only live a day
But it's brilliant anyway

I saw you at the perfect place
It's gonna happen soon, but not today
So go to sleep, and make the change
I'll meet you here tomorrow
Independence Day
Independence Day
Independence Day






CAPRICORN
THE HANGED MAN
Your hands are tied. You are totally cock blocked, bound and gagged. Have no fear. It will pass.

AQUARIUS
THE SUN
Get ready to belt out the refrain from the Battle Hymn of the Republic. Everything is good.

PISCES
THE EMPRESS
A twelve year old kid in the French Quarter once said, "Love, money and lies make the world go round." Well this weekend you'll have the love and money without the lies. Fertility is in the air.

ARIES
QUEEN of PENTACLES
Be generous for you are one of the lucky ones.

TAURUS
2 of WANDS
Don't give up. You are so close.

GEMINI
JUSTICE
Karma could give you a kiss or take your heart out with a rusty lid. It's up to you.

CANCER
5 of PENTACLES
You will receive a last minute reprieve from troubles in love and/or money.

LEO
PAGE of PENTACLES
Good news in money. Protect long-term.

VIRGO
3 of PENTACLES
You've done the planning and your reward is that now you can get to the creative part you love.

LIBRA
STRENGTH
Remain firm when fighting badness - especially if the badness you are wrestling with is within you.

SCORPIO
4 of PENTACLES
You have created a fertile foundation. Go forth and get that healthy glow back.

SAGITTARIUS
6 of PENTACLES
Expect "feelgood money from a sincere source." Don't forget to say thank you.

Weekly Fortunes

Photo by Tim Walker.

CAPRICORN
Some peeps need more butter on what they get from heaven. Cover their ears with cream.

AQUARIUS
Ask yourself what would Christo and Jeanne Claude do? Do that to the caverns in the relationship. Do it with gusto.

PISCES
You are a strange bird for a fish. No wonder you fascinate people. Find your inner ooooo la la.

ARIES
Flush the toilet on the negativity that is stinking up the joint. You look like a goddess in the dawn. Get up extra early this week.

TAURUS
Rock the boom boom out of the slack jawed observers. Do it like Mariah.

GEMINI
Sometimes you feel that vertigo like you might jump or fall uncontrollably. You have more control than you think my dear.

CANCER
Gentle waves of memory roll in. Don't spend too long splashing around there. You have important biz to attend to.

LEO
The time is now and that is all we've got.

VIRGO
Road trip!? Even a short one will do. Roll out the red carpet for a relative who has been blue.

LIBRA
You've come so far and it is only the start of a better way. Namaste.

SCORPIO
Push yourself to odd angles and soaring aspirations. Talk to you know who about what you fear and then release it forever.

SAGITTARIUS
What is you dream? Focus on the details and accomplish each part one by one. Let yourself forget the void for a time.

Weekend Tarot

Beyond beauty: photo by Laughlin.

CAPRICORN
KING of CUPS
Your calm confidence is a good thing but remember not to smother your emotions.

AQUARIUS
PAGE of SWORDS
Stay ahead of the game but don't play people. Learn from those you admire but don't take advice from someone just because they are older or speak with authority.

PISCES
5 of CUPS
Lovesick? Take solace in what remains.

ARIES
KNIGHT of WANDS
Actions mean more than blabbering and you are about to get plenty of action.

TAURUS
QUEEN of CUPS
This card reminds me of the Mona Lisa who smiles attracts people from all walks of life.

GEMINI
7 of CUPS
Go with your gut wjen it comes to making your dreams come true.

CANCER
6 of PENTACLES
Money will fall on you like an unexpected summer rain.

LEO
THE EMPEROR
Just because someone has a strong personality doesn't mean they have good judgement.

VIRGO
8 of CUPS
Some relationships must die to give birth to a healthy future. It may hurt but this is the best choice. Time heals all.

LIBRA
HIGH PRIESTESS
Many paradoxes plague you. Seek peace.

SCORPIO
2 of CUPS
Love, peace and balance prevail.

SAGITTARIUS
10 of SWORDS
And the curtain falls. End=new possibilities.

Weekly Fortunes

Photo by Atget

CAPRICORN
If they don't get you they don't get you. Don't waste breathe!

AQUARIUS
What services do you pay for that you could do yourself? Maybe you should call one of the ones that got away - just once!

PISCES
Are you happy NOW? Let the rest in peace. Fish get out of trouble because you are lucky.

ARIES
Quick - your house is on fire !!! What would you save from the flames? Maybe consider donating or selling the rest.

GEMINI
Is there hope for groups of women to exist without backstabbing? The Real Housewives of wherever seem unable to exist without fighting and talking smack. Yet, the women on Sex & the City get along smashingly and have deep love for each other. One show is "real" and the other is "fiction." Try to be more like the fictional ladies in your friendships.

TAURUS
Animal liberation prayers. Cupcakes. A new do.

CANCER
Just say no. Edit. Refuse. Let them eat silence.

LEO
Channel your inner lion. You are regal and this week you can get what you want without sweating.

VIRGO
What do you take for granted? The tree outside your window? Someone you see everyday? A relative you have been meaning to call?

LIBRA
Passion and fantasy left you with nothing. Love comes to you with everything. Love spoken is just words. Love demonstrated every day is a true treasure.

SCORPIO
Cleanse yourself in every way: mud masks, clean your junk drawer, your inbox, your kidneys, your heart.

SAGITTARIUS
With the summer solstice you can white canvas yourself and make the first stroke toward the new view.

Weekend Tarot

Photo by Atget.
CAPRICORN
4 of WANDS
Movin on up and lovin it!

AQUARIUS
THE MOON
You know what you see. The question is what do you FEEL?

PISCES
KNIGHT of WANDS
Progress - for real this time.

ARIES
THE WORLD
We aren't promised the world but sometimes we get it anyway. Enjoy it while you can. This is a landmark for you.

TAURUS
3 of CUPS
Love grows like armpit hair. Celebrate the love.

GEMINI
10 of CUPS
Things are smooth as real whipped cream.

CANCER
7 of WANDS
Everything worthwhile involves risk, action and faith.

LEO
3 of PENTACLES
The card of the artisan who spins straw into gold.

VIRGO
PAGE of SWORDS
Stay shrewd and don't get caught slippin.

LIBRA
6 of CUPS
Accept your personal history and venture forth into the future.

SCORPIO
2 of PENTACLES
Harmony in transactions.

SAGITTARIUS
5 of PENTACLES
It isn't as bad as you think, Your guardian angel has it under control.

Weekly Fortunes

Photo by the great Eggleston.
(unless otherwise stated photos are by me)

CAPRICORN
Have you ever read THE LADY WHO LIKED CLEAN RESTROOMS? This might be the week to read a little each night. In all other matters put one foot in front of the other and keep on keepin on.

AQUARIUS
How much have you spent on items that remind you of Paris? Instead of buying books and items for the house that bring your mind to Paris (or any other place you long to see) try saving the money in a jar. Eventually instead of having things that remind you of Paris you will have enough money for a plane ticket. If you don't have an up to date passport now is the time to get one.


PISCES
Go there. Don't pass go no matter what is promised. Take the fastest and most direct route there.

ARIES
What is the latest with those voices in your head? Have they been naughty? Loud? Quiet? Try to censor out the unproductive.

TAURUS
Sometimes we can learn a lot from old songs. Seek out music from the early 1960s for your soundtrack this week. The Big Bopper perhaps? Or the Supremes?

GEMINI
What is something you can only do in the summer? Do it. Perhaps a 2 am run around the block in short shorts? A giant sun hat and sandals?

CANCER
You don't have to prove your love. If they want proof give them the boot.

LEO
When was the last time you told someone to go screw themselves? Has it been a long time? Good that means you are growing up.

VIRGO
Sometimes you go out on a limb and find yourself in a dangerous position emotionally. Does that mean you should stop climbing trees?

LIBRA
You may have gotten them wrong. You may have missed the point. Try again.

SCORPIO
Is it time to watch Naked Lunch again? Give yourself reminders that reality is so much more than facebook or twitter or even this.

SAGITTARIUS
Hollywood in the 1940s. Invoke it. Have secrets. Have glamour. Wear lipstick or a fedora. If only for a week......